Woulda Coulda Shoulda explores the search for self-esteem by trying to live up to an idealized image of yourself to compensate feelings of insecurity, self-doubt & anxiety. This cycle often produce a sense of impending failure that inspires frenzied hard-work and short-lived gratification when failure is delayed. This experience is more specific than mere self-doubt and overthinking. It is the fear of being found out. Revealed for what I really was. The finale – “taking off the mask” involves owning all the various parts of yourself, accepting them instead of trying to get rid of them, and understanding their function in the larger self at the core of one’s being, a shell that must be concealed, but also an intrinsic understanding of the selves as many selves.
Directed by Maui Barzuna (Costa Rica)